Spring Break '11

Spring Break SUCKED for the most part. I suppose Ill start from the beginning, seeing how it goes from good too bad. Well, the first night of spring break I decided to go to Brooke's so we could spend some alone time together, I barely get to see her anymore cus of how much shes out of town. First we all went to Desert Ridge so I could get Siera's gift, the mall was boring after 10 minutes, like most everything else is. Later that night though me and Brooke both got to vent about all the utter shit that's been troubling us lately. I got to talk about how I'm drifting from Lissa with the one person that I feel could understand. We both felt much better after we had talked, nothing was resolved but we never get to talk to anybody about our problems. Were both more the people that other friends come to with their own problems. Anyways, the next day I met up with Sarah early in the morning so I could go to the mall with her. We listened to songs and sang in her car and just had fun. I had forgetten all about whatever i was annoyed with her with by the time our time ended. Sarahs a really fun person to be around, I cant stay mad at her ever.
Then we went to Fry's and Nicole and Corey were there, with some other kid. We sat together for a few minutes before Drew showed up and put everyone in a bad mood as always, I really fucking dont like him. That whole family has mental issues and are just plain losers, I want nothing to do with them anymore. Anyways, after Drew left I started to have a good time waiting with them, Corey gave me a really awkward hug when they all left, which gave me something to think about while I waited. Then my aunt finally got their and we left, I had a really great time with her. We picked up Gramma and Paysley and had a really great time at the Aloha festival, I really love spending time with my family, its usually great. Paysley was really adorable the whole time too, she loved me. She held my hand the entire time, and we sang in the car together, she has the same taste in music as me. Which made me laugh seeing as how shes only 4. I always felt like she was overley shy around me before that day, but by the time I had to say goodbye to her she wanted me to stay so bad that she cried hysterically as I left. I really love her, shes so adorable. Anyways, then I met up with Nicole, Corey, and Coreys friend Shane in Mcdonalds. They were all high so I felt kind of awkward and I was really nervous for whatever reason. One really good reason actually. We pretty much didnt do anything the whole night, just walked around and shit. I didnt care, Me and Nicole were both having a really good time. Then we finally sat down and settled, I was hoping the seating arrangment would be a bit different, but still. I was really cold and voiced that, so Corey gave me his jacket. So sweet. It was wet and cold cus his palms were so sweaty, but I didnt really care, I snuggled into the jacket and felt really warm inside and out. Im so lame, dear God. Anyways...nicoles parents claimed we had a cab coming so we had to leave them. Everytime I hug Corey goodbye he usually says 'yay' and I get so happy that I end up hugging him for an awkward amount of time. He must have some idea I like him...right? I mean I gave his friend a 2 second hug and then practically mauled him so..he must kind of know. Or maybe not, I dont know. Maybe he doesnt care enough to notice or something.
Well, the next day was Siera's birthday party, and I was in a really good mood about it. Besides her mom making every second of everything awkward, I had a really good time. I miss Siera a lot, shes so much fun to hang out with. And I actually liked all of her friends too, they were really nice and everything. She liked all her gifts and had a pretty good time, so I was content. Then after me and Nicole went back to her house we had plans to meet up with Corey and Shane at Shane's house. So we got all dolled up, and eventually got there. It was awkward at first, and it was a little boring too so I suggested we should get the hell out of that kids house. Something about the jacket came up, and Corey tried to convince me his palms werent sweaty by touching me on my thigh...they were really clammy and gross, but I didnt even mind. I was really flustered over it, such a small thing but it drove me crazy. So I had to get out and walk around, I borrowed one of that kids jackets which made me look really stupid cus I had to put it over my dress, but atleast I was warm. I guess they were looking for shrooms the whole day and had finally gotten some, so we went to lay in the grass while they awaited there trip to come. What happened while we were waiting is kind of a blur. But eventually I decided to invite Sarah cus I missed her and she was going with me to Connors later anyways. I had to go meet her at IHOP so Corey came with me to help me find her, I think he just wanted to give his friend some alone time with Nicole though, they were into eachother. I finally found Sarah and Coreys shrooms were kicking in, he was really quite and the only things he said made it sound like he wasnt having a good time. I tried to calm him down but he just kind of didnt talk much after that. We made our way back to them eventually and they looked pretty close, I hated that we were probably ruining her moment with that guy, but I REALLY needed to get to my ciggerettes. While we were chilling there for awhile me and Sarah decided on just spending the night at connors, really just so we could give Nicole more time with that kid. We eventually had to leave though, so we just dropped everyone off at Cholla. I gave everyone a hug, I even gave Nicole 3 cus I wouldnt see her for a 6 days :/ we were pretty upset. I gave Corey a weird rocking hug, I dont think he relized how long it lasted cus he was still shrooming.
Anyways, me and Sarah finally got to Connors. Things were going pretty good, I had a decent buzz going about 30 minutes in, and the atmosphere was real nice. Until they started talking about Emily...like always. I really don't want to hear about her anymore, she doesn't exist to me. Im tired of people waiting for me to join in and just talk shit about her with them. I just don't give a fuck, shes yesterdays news. Not part of my agenda anymore what so ever. Connors probably more annoyed with it than even I am, seeing as how hes still friends with her and Keagan. It must get really annoying to him, so I asked them to stop and they didn't. The mood was slowly getting ruined, I had to think fast...so I just suggested that we move shit onto the hot tub. By the time we get there I am pretty drunk, feeling real good. Not even caring that the only thing I had on was a bra and Connors boxers. we had a real good time until some lady asked us to leave. We hurried away considering the fact of all the illegal substances we had on us. Once we get back to his room, shit starts to get weird. Like, fucked up. Some one suggests Strip Sorry. Everyone was really into the idea of course, I felt so fucking pressured into it I wanted to run out and cry. But where would I go?? I finally agreed, took 3 more shots, put on all of the clothes I had in my bag, and accepted my fate. I didn't even know how to play this fucking game, I knew I was doomed. But somehow I ended up getting everyone naked after about 15 minutes. That wasn't my intention, hell, I didn't even know what I was doing. Its apparently more a game of luck than skill, and a skillfully got everyone butt naked with still having most of my layers on. But I kind of fucked up, now the whole objective of everyone was just to get me naked. I was fucked. As I stripped the last article of my clothing, Connor gets hard. I felt fucking swindled, I was assured many times that this kid was gay. And was only with Cadle for emotional reasons. I had led myself to believe that I could feel safe with this kid, now I just felt like I was about to get raped or something. After we were all naked I didn't know what the point was in playing anymore, so the next person to score was to get a kiss? it was Lexy of course. At this point I didn't give a fuck, the room was spinning and I just wanted to get this night over with. Ive never felt so unsafe. By the time we all got dressed again, Sarah suggested we watch porn together. As long as I wasn't naked anymore, what the fuck did I care. It was already one of the worst nights of my life. Then Connor keeps trying to get everyone naked again. I was tired and drunk and didn't want to be there. After a lot of awkward moments, I just go into Connors other bedroom to sleep in peace, with out being bothered, or so I thought. At about 5am, only 2 hours after I had went to go to bed, Some guy comes into Connors room. I don't think he saw me or anything, he set all of his stuff down on my ass and started unpacking??? I gave him the "who the hell?" look then all he says is 'Oh' and runs out, leaving his stuff on me. I was too drunk for this, I had the spins and was nauseous so I just disregarded it.
The next morning wasnt so bad, Connor took us driving on the hills and we listened to good music the whole time. Then they started watching my least favorite movie in the world so I straight up walked out. I went to go meet up with Alexandra at Horizon park, I hadnt seen her yet since the break started. Hanging out with her was really easy, we dont usually have awkward silences like I do with other people. I told her about last night and she told me I shouldve went to her place. I really fucking shouldve, I figured she wouldnt be awake or something. Damn. Anyways after we got done fucking around and after she smoked a bowl, we met up with Corey. We eventually made our way to his place when Nicole started texted me about Drew shit, and I tried to console her but there isnt much I can say. Drew was really fucking getting to her, it was pissing me off. He cant even leave her alone on vacation? Whatever. After an awkward amount of time with Corey and his brother we left so me and alexandra could go catch the bus. I pretty much un-invited everyone from coming over later at this point, I never want to see Connor or Lexy again. Theyre just too pushy, they make me so uncomfortable. So me and Alexandra rode the bus up to my house, it was an interesting bus ride. And I was so exhuasted from only getting 4 hours of sleep the night before, I pretty much fell asleep around 10. She didnt really mind, she was kind of tired too.
The next morning Alexandra left to get her car and clothes she was gonna sell. While she was gone I re cooperated, I hadn't had a moment alone to myself for about 5 days. I showered and read a little. Had a smoke. It was nice having some time to myself. At about 2 or 3 she came to pick me up, it took us about an hour and a half to find a place that is 10 minutes away from my house. I thought it was pretty funny until she hit a curb cus she was texting. She fucked up her car really bad but hell, I don't  know what a car is supposed to look like with or without a fucking hub cap. I told her it was fine. So we just kind of forgot about it, I couldn't deal with anything but fun at this point of the break, I just wanted to go on with the day. So we drive down to Scottsdale to meet up with David so she can buy some weed, which he completely ripped her off with. like HORRIBLY ripped off. She was pissed and I didnt really give a fuck. She let it go cus she thinks hes really cute, i think hes a douche bag but whatever. We go back to her place so I can drink the rest of my tequila and she can smoke a bowl. She said it was really good weed I guess. After a while we were gonna drive up to get gas and meet up with Corey or something at his work, she kept talking about how he'd be cute only if he gained weight. It was pissing me off. But I didn't have the means to say anything, for all she knows I dont give a shit about him. So I just kept my mouth shut and drank up. After about a half an hour of Alexandra trying to work the gas pump, we realize the car ism ore fucked than we thought. The tire is flat, there's dents and scratches, and the hub cap is gone. She calls her dad and hes pissed of course, I needed to get the hell out of their, I wreaked of booze and stupidity for not knowing the car looked bad earlier. She was suddenly depressed over the fact that she barely had any weed left and wanted me to go, so being the class fucking act I am, I say its fine. Her brother drives me to Aztec. I figured my dad would pick me up right away, it was 7 and it was started to get dark, I was wearing something really whore-ish cus I didn't expect to be around too many people. I had to take out Corey's brothers jacket to wear. My dad eventually texts me back and refuses to pick me up till at least 11. I was so upset, I went into the bathroom to cry for about an hour and have Brooke console me. She urged me to tell Sarah what had happened, but I really didn't want to bother her. After awhile, I finally call her though. Shes upset that Im upset and crying, so she rushes to come and get me. I really love Sarah, if someone she cares about is in trouble, she goes straight into mother-mode and will do anything to protect them. She was really sweet to me and on the car ride back to her place, she wanted me to tell her everything that had happened. Eventually it came out that I have a slight crush on Corey and she thought it was really cute. She didn't make me feel bad like I figured every one of my friends would, she actually consoled me on the topic when I told her that I think he likes Nicole. Shes the only person ive told and the only person I will ever tell. No one else but her would understand. As far as everyone else knows, I don't even really like Corey being around. They'd call me a hypocrite. But my opinion about him changed. Well, all I know is Sarah made me feel so much better, Im so glad Brooke convinced me to talk to her. Eventually Nicole starts texting me, and after I tell her everything Alexandra's done, she was more pissed than I was at that point. She brought up a lot of really valid points, It made me really think. Anyways, that's pretty much the only significant part of My Spring Break. After that whole ordeal, I barely hung out with anyone until Brooke came back. This was an awful break, at least the end of it.